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  The horse Nerron had hired found the sight of him just as disturbing as the good people of Saint-Riquet had. And by the time it finally allowed him to climb into the saddle, Reckless was out of sight. Nerron caught up with him just as he entered the forest that soon replaced the fields and meadows to the south of the town. Nerron was grateful for the shade under the trees, not only because it made him almost invisible. Sunlight no longer hurt his eyes since he’d had them hexed by a child-eater. It did, however, still crack his skin, even though he oiled it every day.

  The forest was one of the former royal woods that had for a long time been the exclusive hunting grounds of the Lotharainian nobility. In the meantime they also provided wood for the factories and the railroads. This one, however, was still nearly as dense as it had been in the old days, and it reminded Nerron of the stone forests beneath the earth, which filled enormous caves with branches of garnet and leaves of the same malachite that ran through his skin.

  He only pulled out his blowpipe once Reckless had ridden far between the trees. The plant shoot Nerron pushed into the narrow steel pipe was covered with thorns so sharp that only a Goyl could touch them without tearing his skin. It landed on the clearing Reckless was headed toward, and it began to grow as soon as it touched the ground. Choke vines grew fast. Faster than any prey could run.

  Reckless reined in his horse as soon as he realized what was creeping toward him. He wanted to turn about, but the vines were already growing around his horse’s hooves. The vines clawed into Reckless’s clothes and wrapped themselves around his arms while his horse reared up in panic. Reckless was nearly trampled to death when the vines pulled him from the saddle. Careful! Nerron wanted him alive.

  The Goyl tethered his horse to a tree. The stupid nag still shied from him. Reckless’s horse had managed to free itself. It trotted toward him, bleeding and trembling, as soon as he stepped out into the path. Nerron caught the animal and reached into the backpack hanging from the saddle. The head was still in a swindlesack. Of course. Only amateurs carried their quarry in plain sight.

  Reckless had already all but disappeared. The vines had enveloped him in a spiky cocoon. Nerron pulled them apart until he could see the face of his rival. Reckless was unconscious— choke vines quickly suffocated their victims—but he opened his eyes when Nerron punched him in the face.

  Nerron held up the swindlesack. “Thank you! I’m very glad I didn’t have to go on a boat. Where do you think I should look for the heart?”

  Reckless tried to sit up, though the vines were driving their thorns into his soft flesh. The wolves would soon catch the scent of his blood. These woods were home to an infamous pack that had grown accustomed to human flesh by a local nobleman who used to feed his enemies to them.

  “Even if I knew, why should I tell you?” The gray eyes were alert, and there wasn’t much fear in them. It was exactly as everybody said: Reckless fears nothing. He thinks he’s immortal.

  Nerron tied the swindlesack to his belt.

  “If you tell me, I will kill you before the wolves eat you.”

  Oh yes, he was afraid, though he hid it well. And he didn’t care. Enviable. Nerron despised fear. Fear of water. Fear of others. Fear of himself. He fought it with rage, but that only made it grow, like a well-fed creature.

  “I already have the hand.” He couldn’t resist a little bragging. Too often had he been forced to listen to the tales of Jacob Reckless’s glorious deeds.

  “Perfect.” His adversary’s face turned white with pain as he tried to sit up once more. “Then I can take it off you when I get my head back.”

  “Really?” Nerron was wearing the gloves that had already protected him from many spells, yet the pain shot all the way to his shoulder as he pulled the head from the sack. The eyes were closed, but the lips were slightly parted. Nerron quickly shoved the head back into the sack before it could utter something. Even a dead Warlock might still have a spell waiting on his lips.

  Nerron put the swindlesack in his coat pocket. His lizard-leather coat would have given Reckless’s human skin much more protection than the fabric his coat was made from. As soft as his skin, and just as tearable. “Now, before all your wisdom gets ingested by a wolf...how did you manage to steal the red riding hood from the child-eater in Moulin? I heard she already had you in her oven.”

  “I’ll tell you if you tell me how you found that white blackbird. I searched for it for months.” Reckless tried to free one of his hands, but choke vines were very reliable fetters. “Does its song really make you young again?”

  “Yes, but the effect barely lasts a week. My client had already paid me before he found out.” Nerron rubbed his cracked skin. It ached, even in the shade of the forest. Once this hunt was over, he urgently needed a few months underground. But there was one more question he wanted to ask.

  He pulled his knife.

  “Just out of curiosity...and I promise you’ll take the answer with you to your grave—or should I say, into a wolf’s intestines? Where are you hiding your jade-skinned brother?”

  Ah. So there was a way to get through that smug mask.

  “Will. Wasn’t that his name?” Nerron leaned over his prisoner and cut a fresh shoot from the vine that had wrapped around Reckless’s soft neck. There’d always be another opportunity to use choke vines. “Did you know the onyx have tasked five of their best spies to find him?”

  Reckless’s eyes followed every move Nerron made. He had himself under control again, but human eyes were still much more treacherous than a Goyl’s. Their alertness betrayed what his silence was trying to conceal. Yes, the rumors were true: the Jade Goyl, who had saved Kami’en’s stone skin, was indeed Jacob Reckless’s brother.

  “Where is he?” Nerron wrapped the fresh shoot in the cloth that still had a few thorns of the old one stuck in. “You could both buy a palace in Lutis with all the silver the onyx have spent searching for him, and they still haven’t found even the faintest trail. That must be quite a remarkable hiding place.”

  Reckless smiled. “Maybe I’ll tell you if you get these thorns off me.”

  Oh, Nerron liked him—as much as he was capable of liking anyone. It was just as well that feeling overcame him so rarely. His mother was the only person he’d ever given his unquestioning affection to. Love was a luxury you paid for with far too much pain.

  “No,” he said. “I’d better not. The onyx are already unbearable. Doesn’t bear thinking about what will happen if the Jade Goyl helps one of them grab Kami’en’s crown.”

  “Yes?” Reckless swallowed a groan. His skin was probably well larded with thorns by now. “What do you think will happen when you get them the crossbow?”

  Nice try.

  Nerron tucked the cloth with the shoot into his pocket. “Our clients are our professional secret, aren’t they?” He could already hear the wolves between the trees. “I’m not asking you whom you’re seeking the crossbow for.”

  He gave his rival one last smile.

  “I really am glad our paths crossed this way. I was getting sick of constantly hearing that you are the best in our trade. Good luck with the wolves. Maybe you’ll think of something. Surprise me! They don’t leave much behind, and it would be such a pity if the vixen has to spend the rest of her life searching for you.”

  Nerron jumped onto his horse just as the first wolf came slinking toward Reckless. The others would soon follow. Unlike the onyx lords, however, Nerron didn’t find the screams of a dying man very entertaining.

  And Louis had probably found a virgin by now.

  A HOUSE AT THE EDGE OF THE VILLAGE

  The house looked even more shabby than she’d remembered. Mold sprouting in the stone walls. The stench of rotting straw and pig manure. Fishing had made some men along this coast rich, but her father had always taken his money to the tavern rather than bring it home. Father. Why do you still call him that, Fox? Her mother had married him when Fox was three. Two years and two months after the death of her actual father.


  A stump was all that was left of the apple tree by the gate, which she had climbed so often as a child because the world always seemed much less frightening when viewed from above. The sight nearly made her turn her horse about, but her mother had planted primroses in front of the house, just as she used to every spring. The pale yellow blossoms reminded Fox of all the good times she’d had because of her behind those shabby walls. As a child, she’d wondered that something as fragile as a flower could withstand the wind and the world. Maybe her mother had always planted those primroses to teach her and her brothers just that.

  Fox touched the posy she’d tucked into her saddle. The blossoms had withered, but that didn’t make them any less beautiful. Jacob had given them to her. For a brief moment, those dried flowers made her feel as though he was by her side. Their two lives, connected through a flower.

  The gate stood open, just as it had on the day they chased her away. Her two older brothers and her stepfather. They’d tried to take the fur dress away from her. Fox had torn it from their hands, and she’d started to run. She had felt the bruises from the stones they’d thrown at her for weeks, even under the vixen’s fur. Her youngest brother had stayed hidden in the house, together with her mother, who’d stared through the window as though trying to hold her back with her eyes. But she hadn’t protected her daughter; how should she have? She could never even protect herself.

  As Fox walked toward the door, she could see her younger self running across the yard. Her hair braided into pigtails, her knees covered in scabs and bruises. Celeste, where have you been this time?

  She’d been in Ogre caves with Jacob, and in the oven rooms of Black Witches, yet she’d never wanted to leave a place as badly as she had this one. Not even her love for her mother had been able to bring her back. Now it was her love for Jacob that led her here again.

  Knock, Celeste. They won’t be here. Not at this time.

  As soon as her hand touched the wood of the door, Fox was assaulted by the past. It gulped up whatever strength and confidence she’d been given by the fur and the many years away from this place. Jacob! Fox pictured his face so it would remind her of the present and of the Fox she’d become.

  “Who’s there?” Her mother’s voice. What a mighty animal the past is. The hushed songs her mother used to sing to her at bedtime...her mother’s fingers in her hair as she braided it...Who is there? Yes, who?

  “It’s me, Celeste.”

  The name tasted of the honey Fox used to steal from the wild bees when she was a child, and of the nettles that used to sting her bare legs.

  Silence. Was her mother standing behind the door, once more hearing the impact of the stones on the ground and on her child’s skin? It felt like an eternity before she pushed back the latch.

  She’d grown old. The long black hair was now gray, and her beauty had all but faded, washed, little by little, from her face by each passing year.

  “Celeste...” She spoke the name as though it’d been waiting on her lips all these years, like a butterfly she’d never shooed away. She took her daughter’s hands before Fox could pull them away. Stroked Fox’s hair and kissed her face. Again and again. She held Fox tight, as though she wanted to get back all the years when she hadn’t held her child. Then she pulled the girl into the house. She latched the door. They both knew why.

  The house still smelled of fish and damp winters. The same table. The same chairs. The same bench by the oven. And behind the windows, nothing but meadows and piebald cows. As though time had stopped. But on her way here, Fox had passed many abandoned houses. It was a hard life, having to rely on sea and land to feed you. The machines’ noisy promises were so alluring: Everything could be made by human hands, and wind and winter no longer had to be feared. Yet it was the wind and the winter that had shaped these people.

  Fox reached for the bowl of soup her mother had pushed toward her.

  “You’re doing well.” It wasn’t a question. There was relief in her voice. Relief. Guilt. And so much helpless love. But that wasn’t enough.

  “I need the ring.”

  Her mother put down the milk jug from which she was filling her cup.

  “You still have it?”

  Her mother didn’t answer.

  “Please. I need it!”

  “He wouldn’t have wanted me to give it to you.” She pushed the milk toward her daughter. “You can’t know how many years you still have.”

  “I’m young.”

  “So was he.”

  “But you’re alive, and that’s all he ever wanted.”

  Her mother sat down on one of the chairs on which she’d spent so many hours of her life, mending clothes, rocking babies....

  “So you’re in love with someone. What is his name?”

  But Fox didn’t want to say Jacob’s name. Not in this house. “I owe him my life. That’s all.” It wasn’t all, but her mother would understand.

  She brushed the gray hair from her face. “Ask me for anything else.”

  “No. And you know you owe me this.” The words were out before Fox could hold them back.

  The pain on the tired face made Fox forget all the anger she felt. Her mother got up.

  ***

  “I never should have told you that story.” She smoothed the tablecloth. “I just wanted you to know what kind of a man your father was.”

  She brushed her hand across the tablecloth again, as though she could brush away everything that had made her life so hard. Then she slowly walked to the chest where she kept the few things she called her own. From it she took a wooden box that was covered in black lace. It was lace from the dress she’d worn in mourning for two years.

  “Maybe I’d have survived the fever even if he hadn’t put it on my finger,” she said as she opened the box.

  Inside it was a ring of glass.

  “What I need it for is worse than fever,” Fox said. “But I promise you, I’ll use it only if there is no other way.”

  Her mother shook her head and firmly closed her fingers around the box. But then she heard some noises outside.

  Steps and voices. Sometimes, when the sea was too rough, the men returned early from their boats.

  Her mother looked toward the door. Fox took the box from her hand. She felt ashamed of the fear she saw on her mother’s face. Yet it wasn’t just fear; there was also love. There was always love, even for the man who struck her children.

  He knocked on the door, and Fox pushed back the latch. She longed for the vixen’s teeth, but she wanted to look her stepfather in the eyes. She’d barely reached up to his elbow when he drove her out of the house.

  He wasn’t as big as she’d remembered him. Because you were smaller then, Celeste. So small. He’d been the Giant and she the Dwarf. The Giant who smashed everything in his path. But now she was as tall as he, and he’d grown old. His face was red, as always—red from the wine, the sun, and the rage. Rage against anything that moved.

  It took him a moment before he realized who was standing front of him.

  He flinched, as if from a snake, and his hand closed around the stick he was leaning on. He’d always had sticks or belts. He used to throw boots and wooden logs at his sons and Fox, as though they were rats hiding behind his oven.

  “What are you doing here?” he barked. “Get out!”

  He wanted to grab her as he used to, but Fox shoved him back and slapped the stick out of his hand.

  “Let her go.” Her mother’s voice was trembling, but at least this time she said something.

  “Get out of my way,” Fox said to the man she once had to call Father, even though he’d taught her to despise the word itself.

  He lifted his fists. How often had her eyes been glued to those hands, full of fear of the tanned skin on the knuckles tightening, turning white. She saw him in her dreams sometimes, and he always had the mouth of a wolf.

  She pushed past him without saying another word. She wanted to forget he existed, to imagine that he’d just
disappeared one day, like Jacob’s father, or that her mother had never married again.

  “I will be back,” Fox said to her.

  Her mother stood by the window as Fox walked toward the gate. Just like the last time. And just like then, the three of them blocked her path, her stepfather and his two sons. He’d gotten his stick back, and his eldest was holding the pitchfork. Gustave and René. Gustave looked even more dense that he used to. René was smarter, but he did whatever Gustave told him. It was René who’d thrown the first stone.

  Shape-shifter. Nobody had understood better what Jacob’s brother had felt as he grew a skin of jade. Yet unlike Will, Fox had always been able to choose to wear the fur.

  “Go on! Find a stone!” she hissed at René. “Or are you waiting for your brother’s orders?”

  He ducked his head and looked uneasily at the pistol on her belt.

  “Get the hell out of here!” Her stepfather squinted his myopic eyes.

  She was no longer afraid of him. It was an exhilarating feeling. “Where is Thierry?” she asked. There was one more brother.

  Gustave just gave her a hostile stare. His shirt was speckled with fish blood.

  “He went to the city,” said René.

  “Shut your mouth!” his father yelled.

  Being his stepdaughter hadn’t been easy, but his youngest had it just as bad. Thierry had envied Fox her fur, and she was glad that he’d managed to get away.

  “You know what they say about shape-shifters.” She held up her hand. “Everybody we touch will grow a fur as well. Who wants to go first?”